25 January 2010

Lived another day...

...thanks to my very strong and overworked guardian angel. Today apparantly involved some overtime. While I tend to live an overall careless life, I was even shaken and very happy to hold still. My angel is happy for the break now that I'm safely parked in Starbucks trying to regain composure from the day.

Getting pulled over for speeding 18 over the speed limit in Ohio (by a State cop no less) wasn't the most fantastic start of the day, until of course I got to infuriate Eric with getting away with it. Then I felt quite smug (although I admit slowing down in general since I'm happy to finally have a clean licence!).

However, the pothole incident left me a bit rattled, and Habanero (my car)a bit banged up. Actually we're both a bit banged up, but when you consider the end result that we're both safe after running into the concrete barrier at 80 mph, I feel very protected by Somebody. I swear, the barrier simply leaped up and attacked us. It was very violent, and fortunately was able to limp into Philadelphia where Habanero is getting special attention at the MiniCooper dealership (replacing both front tires and rims).

In all seriousness, I suggest to the turnpike idiots of Pennsylvania that if they are going to have the gall to charge me $20 to cross their stupid state, they could at least attempt to make the road passable. A disaster pothole shot my poor car straight into the middle median (concrete barriers). I saw it coming and managed to sideswipe it, giving all the impact to the poor tire. Several spins and a ditch later, I am in complete shock that there is absolutely no body damage. Booyah to Mini! However, let's just say the ride into Philly (this happened 114 miles west of town) was really really rough.

Tomorrow everything should be back to normal, but I have to admit, I'm happy to take the train anyway right now ;)

18 January 2010

Easier said than done....

It is always always always easier said than done! If you remember or take a quick look at my previous blog post, you'll know that I'm trying to change my mindset to be more open in providing the benefit of the doubt to others and truly becoming love. While I do maintain my Henna tattoo, i.e., constant reminder, of "become love", my exhaustion with recent work deadlines and renewed studies has shortened my temper with fellow humans. It's now become something that has to be extremely conscience for me to implement, but I have hope - it's still early in the year.

In a spot of bright news, I am now stocked with fantastically delicious mead, and get to restock the best fruit wines in northern Kentucky this weekend with Eric.

In another spot of bright news, this rather exhausting and dreadful week will lead into a much better time in Philadelphia and New York City next week :)

01 January 2010

The Five Secrets... (book review)

The Five Secrets You Must Discover Before You Die The Five Secrets You Must Discover Before You Die by John Izzo


My rating: 4 of 5 stars

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A Different Beginning...

Every New Year seems to be a fresh start, but the implementation of that 'fresh start' is usually quite difficult because we have our baggage from all the previous years skewing that so-called self renewal. However, something fascinating that I read in book titled The Five Secrets You Must Discover Before you Die by John Izzo is that we can't change everything that we've identified needing changed at once. Despite our constant attempts being jacks of all trades and masters of none with our multi-tasking everything, we can't truly improve many things at once effectively. Also, goals rarely get the job done as well as simply tuning your mind to what you want changed by a constant presence, ie, mindset change. This insight actually thrills me because I'm really tired of failing my New Year's Resolutions.

Instead, I am going for a complete mindset change by immersing it with my life. Dr. Izzo suggests writing the change on a card where you have to see it a lot, so I decided to put "become love" as a henna tattoo on my arm where I can always see it.

Become love? At first I thought that seemed really sappy or unrealistic. However, this is a strictly interpersonal adjustment where I stop assuming the worst out of people. That most certainly does not mean to be naive, but it's a change in response to people around me, forcing me to drop my defense barriers and not make assumptions why people decide what they do, even if it negatively impacts me. I guess another way to explain it is that I want to not take things personally to the point where my cognitive skills are taken over by blinded hurt and subsequent defensiveness. I believe this will make me much less brittle as a person and more understanding of people and relationships with people as a whole.